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So here i am, keying in my 2nd blog. I suddenly had some over-whelming emotions that i thought would be good to share around.

I used to be an utterly spoilt brat at home. From my old grandparents to my parents, there wasn’t anybody in the family that can contain this highly ferocious and obnoxious kid. And the fact that my parents quarrelled every other day probably didn’t help that much. Thus, this pretty much sums up the relationships in my family, or perhaps more appropriately, the apparent lack of it.

I guess at some point in my life, my parents’ marriage was very near to the precipice of breakage. There is only one reason to keep both of them going, and needless to say, the reason is me. I have also realised that i have been pretty much the cause of their countless disagreements. I am blessed to have 2 wonderful parents, both of which love and adore me with their lives, and i take it upon myself that i caused this blissful engagement to be so precarious now.

I have to do something about it, and i did. The days where i shouted back at my parents were gone. The memories of me slamming the numerous doors at home were deleted. These are things that i swear i wouldn’t do again.

I can’t forgive myself for the way i treated my parents in the past. The least i could do now is to conscientiously build up this relationship again from scratch. We have wasted much time and we must get cracking soon. And all these will start from me.

One fine afternoon while i was having dinner at Orchard Road, a thought struck me. I showed the maximum courtesy to the waiters and waitressers that served me. I incidentally happen to be with some friends at that point, and i treated each and every one of them amiably. Suddenly, i couldn’t justify the way i have been treating my parents. They were the closest people on this planet to me, and undoubtedly the most important. If i could be so nice to a stranger, surely i must be at least 100 times more polite to my closest kins.

Mum and Dad, i really thank you so much for being so forgiving, and the way i was showered with your unconditional love. Luckily, i have the chance to make some amendments. Do not wait till it is too late to.

Thanks all for taking the time to read. Regards

Jackal

It has taken me a good 2 years to finally come out with my debut blog. It suddenly struck me that this could be a good avenue for me to pencil my thoughts and feelings.

I am pretty certain that i wouldn’t post new articles every day. Perhaps once in 3 days or when i really do not have the time,it could be one every week to summarise for the whole 7 days.

I have read a good number of books these couple of months and i finally feel that i am getting a bit more knowledgeable than i ever was. When i was younger, i seriously thought that people who reads during his/her free time were the greatest fools. Time could and would be better spent playing hide-and-seek,blind mice or even a vintage childhood game known as "Indian House".

As time goes by, i realised the greatest fool is none other than me,myself and Jackal. I can never understand how i ever miss out on all the useful attributes of reading, and i chose to be misled and blinded by my own laziness.

Now, after completing a book on psychology, i am reading our Ex-President Dr Wee Kim Wee’s book titled, Glimspes and Reflections. I have the utmost respect for Dr Wee. A man, who rose from a very humble beginning, all the way to the highest office in the land. I am extremely impressed by his warmth and sincerity towards everyone, even the most common commoner, perhaps someone like myself. Inviting common people to his home for a great Peranakan meal, and his list of Mrs Wee 10 favourite songs left me totally breathless. What a man.

Recently i have been troubled by something that happened in the past. I never for once realised i was such an unreasonable and incorrigible person in the past. Now, i can never imagine myself treating another person in this disgusting manner that i did. A heartfelt thanks to everyone who told me that mistakes are inevitable. But the truth is really, I can’t forgive myself. I think i needed to say at least 1,000 "sorrys" to feel better.

So there you go, my first blog. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read them and see you soon.

Jackal