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Alright, i reckon that it has been a good few days since i put anything here. This week has been really hectic, and i am totally uninspired to pen any thoughts, if there’s any, at all.

I would be embarking on a trip to Taiwan again at the end of the month. I think it would be a fantastic trip in the sense that i would be able to learn and pick up different skills and see things from a new perspective. On the other hand, i am also slightly apprehensive. As this is a new role and it isn’t as straight forward as merely following training, i felt like i was trapped within the confines of a dark room, not knowing what to expect. Whatever it is, new skills would certainly be attained, and i haven’t even talked about the potentially enriching experience yet. Oh yes, and the Ping Lang Meis too?

Next point. Something struck me the other day. I was playing a soccer game and after losing that game, i got immensely frustrated. As i was saying, i used to be someone with a rotten temper. But this bad character trait has been changed progressively. So why am i still showing signs of anger, in a trivial situation like this?

I tried to examine my feelings. To cope with my temper, i have always asked myself this question in most situations. "Is there a need to get angry?" and "Would getting angry solve the problem?".

My friend iterated that there’s never a need to get angry in games. As the famous saying goes, "It’s only a game". This phrase has been used at least a thousand times to cool me down over the years. My friend tried to close the discussion by stating strongly that the ultimate point of the game is meant to relax the mind anyway. Fair enough and i accept that point.

On the contrary, i argued that i played each and every game with passion. With that kind of fire in me, it would have been strange if i am still feeling good after a defeat. So now, there are 2 ways to deal with this burning frustration. To either keep it in the heart or to release it. I think it would be totally inappropriate to lash out at anyone. Therefore, a subtle way of releasing such emotions must be devised as soon as possible.

Lastly, while it is important to be good in sports, being a good sport is no less important. I think it would be good for me if i can hold my hands up and accept the fact that not everything can go my way and certain things are out of my control. There is a distinctive difference between giving your best efforts and going beyond the limits.

Jackal 

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